Monday, September 27, 2004


Seahawks 34 49ers 0
Seahawks are 3-0
Lets bring the trophy to Seattle

We go on vacation for a week Wednesday. It is needed. I plan to sleep until I get up on Thursday. Hopefully noon.

I am still having a difficult time dealing with the secrecy over why Linda Bond resigned. Its like if we ignore it did not happen. The bear is in the room but we pretend it is not there. It makes some noise so we turn up the volume. We then build a room to house the bear. Mostly we build a wall around it so we act as if its not there. We go about our business walking around the bear ignoring its existence. If this is SOP then eventually the house is full of bears. Then the bears will tear the house apart.


Bill - I don't know the the first thing about Seahawks - but I am begining to share your enthusiasm!!

I worked with Linda Bond when she was at IHQ for a while - I'm stumped whatever her reasoning you can bet she's had it well thought through. I agree the rumour thing is a dangerous animal - we're suffering a little in the UKT with the same regarding what our TC has or hasn't said - it wears me out.

By Blogger Gordon, at 12:32 AM  

Hi, Bill!

I think we all comtemplate as to why Linda Bond resigned for "personal reasons" and what those reasons might be. The silence at the top seems to be deafening, but I think of it it terms of any person who leaves the employ of any organization. The person has a right to his/her privacy even though we feel it would help us cope better. I suspect if anyone of us chose to leave the ranks of officership, we would not want the whole world to know "why" unless we chose to tell?

I believe we have to deal with the matter in our own way, but the silence could lead us to believe either good or bad things happened, which is where we are at right now.

I think we should pray for Linda Bond and The Salvation Army. Those who close to her either don't seem to know what led to her resignation, and those who know certainly aren't talking.

What is difficult is that one isn't left to share with her personally how her resignation may have affected their lives?

God bless you, Bill!

Lloyd Michael Fletcher

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 6:23 PM  

I think the Bonds are going through some trauma, that needs their digestion in private. In time all things will. be clear. Let's pray and trust God to solace, heal and comfort Linda and family and respect that time and process to be.

By Blogger Rein Zeilstra, at 1:33 AM  

I sent her a letter delivered personaly in Singapore, April 2014, which I believe was at the unction of the Holy Spirit, urging her to restore the Preeminece of the Holy Spirit, its baptism and its continual infilling, as Mrs Booth did urge in her article on Agressive Christianity.
To put the axe to the rot of those surrounding the General's office who were a form of godliness but denying the power thereof!
More if you request by email.

Weeks later came her resignation.

Sheng Ling Hou

By Blogger Winston Sheng, at 9:28 PM  

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Wednesday, September 22, 2004

A week

Its been a week since I wrote not much to say.

Tolani is doing okay.

I go on vacation next week it will be good.

I have been so exhausted by everything at the corps and the health stuff. I have felt under the weather most of the week. But I am still getting up every morning. Sometimes that is enough.

Spoke about Christian integrity on Sunday. Interesting and hard topic. How can a church which does not love be a church of integrity? That was my question. Are we in danger of being those white washed tombs? What if we are? The pharasies didn't realize that they were.


Hi Bill

I think you wrote earlier this was your first year in your appointment at the Corps. If I am right it is only natural to feel tired because for the first year everything is new, I can recall it well and because it is new and unfamiliar you have to concentrate harder on what you are doing and you also feel compelled to try and live up to expectations. It gets easier the second year and so on. Be kind to yourself, you will probably feel better after holidays.


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Wednesday, September 15, 2004

An island

After prayer meeting Tolani and I spent an hour in the car talking about lots of stuff. Issues of feelings and thoughts. Neither of us are good at that stuff. I have not been able to think clearly in month. Tolani's health is a big part of that. But there is a bigger reason. For the last couple months I have felt like an island. I hate that feeling. I can not exist as an island.

The issue is community. For the last 2 1/2 years I was part of a community. That is gone. Parts of it are still around but its different. I need to find a community. I need to find people who are happy not doing anything but discussing whether Jesus was married and other assorted useless info. I am struggling living in isolation. I do not have a solution yet. It seems that I just know the problem.

In the modern world of individuals the ideal person is an island. Worse is the situation where there is no one our age at the corps. That fact is killing me. I just do not understand what my role is in the church. But in the modern setting the pastor is separate from the church and not part of their community. I hate that model. I just want community. I do not know what to do.



You dont have to be seperate from your congregation in fact I would encourage you to build community where you are. It is a risk but you will be blessed by doing so. So many people seek community like yourself - God places us in different places for a reason and as the saying goes bloom where you are planted.

I do understand that feeling of being isolated it takes time, the first year in any new appointment is like what on earth am I doing here? Everyone seems alien and sure you dont know what your role is because people expect you to just step into the shoes of the person who came before you. But you will soon find the shoes dont fit and you will need to make your own mark and find your own way of doing ministry.

Dont be discouraged use the time to just find out more about how big God is and lean on him.

God Bless you greatly.


By Anonymous Anonymous, at 11:38 PM  

Glenda gives good advice. Building community where you are is wise counsel. I've been striving for community for a couple of years now, and I'm finding it like searching for the holy grail, ever outside my grasp. My most precious community is between my wife and I, and maybe that is all I truely need for now.

good journey,

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Monday, September 13, 2004

Light and heavy

2-1. Seahawks won Raiders lost Broncos won 2 out of three is not bad.

Tolani is doing better I am barely holding onto reality it seems. I find myself questioning everything about myself. Can I do the management thing? Does anyone get it when I preach and teach? Does what I do matter? I just don't know. Our Dog (Ted) is being a pain in the butt. He keeps biting everything. I question if I'm training him right. I just hate this feeling. I wonder if I am being everything Tolani needs. I don't trust my thoughts or decisions. I am afraid I'm incompetent. I feel like I am on the edge of something I just don't know what that something is. Two weeks and some vacation. That will be good. I dread going to the office afraid I'll screw up. Afraid I already have. Then I saw this post on "Do Justice. I don't know what to do with it. Tears are that comes.


Hi, Bill!

You sound healthy to me. Most officers feel that way at times. Caused by too many tasks with some seemingly unrelated to one another. Glad Tolani is better. No matter what you think of yourself, you are a child of God and trust Him to validate your life, not yourself or others. It will make you feel better knowing He loves you even on the days you have trouble loving yourself. He is the One that really matters! I suspect He knows what you are feeling today and completely understands.

I've learned in life to "learn to let go" of things that I can't control and concentrate of those things I can. I let God have the rest, cause He has the big shoulders, not me. It makes life more bearable all way around. Try it, you might find it will work for you.

God bless you, Bill! I'm praying for added strength for both Tolani and you. You'll get through this...its just a tough time for you right now.

Lloyd Michael Fletcher

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 8:04 AM  

As a young man it is normal to pose the questions you are asking yourself, especially during this time with Tolani, but keep the faith in the Lord going strong in your heart and you will do just fine. Those are not empty words Bill, they are the Lord's promise to you, as you draw to Him, He will draw to you. All that Tolani needs from you right now is your strength as a man of God, your prayers as her covering in the Lord, and your love and acceptance of her in no matter what situation you will find your life in. Speaking from 31 years of marriage and six kids later, I know from where I speak. You are called to be her strength at times when she can not cry out to God on her own, you are called to me her one greatest love after her love of Jesus Christ. God has equipted you to be who you are in Him, you just need to trust in Him that He is leading you and He is your comforter through the power of the Holy Spirit. You will also find times in your life when the roles will actually reverse, when she will be the rock of faith for you. It is all a part of growing together in Christ Jesus and finding the road that God has planned for you. Grow together, pray together, even when she can't, you pray with her and lead her. You are each other's help mates and God is the Head of your household. I am praying for you and even though I do not know you physically, my spirit bares witness with you and that you will come through all of this victoriously, just keep pressing into the Lord and He will give you the assurance, guidance and confidence you need. Blessings in the MOST EXCELLENT NAME OF JESUS.

By Blogger Concerned Citizen, at 11:15 AM  


I read something today about it being in our brokenness that we are truly effective - I don't know - there is strength in vulnerability?

By Blogger Gordon, at 1:28 AM  

Bill you and Tolani are in my prayers. Interesting that I've only met you through the internet, yet I pray for you and your family daily.

Thanks for the link to that great post.

This verse came in my email box today, maybe it will speak to you: John 16:33 "These things I have spoken to you, that in Me you may have peace. In the world you have tribulation, but take courage; I have overcome the world."

good journey,
Br Boz (alias Dan)

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 9:08 AM  


I can remember in my very first appointment having a DC who would tell us constantly that we needed to be well-rounded officers (that is good at everything) I used to struggle and try and be a well-rounded officer. Then I started to look around and to date I am yet to meet the well-rounded officer. God gives us gifts and talents to be used at a time for a purpose - I have found he then places other people near us who are good at the things we arent so good at. I have found I need to humble myself and allow others to do what God has gifted them to do to allow me to be what God wants me to be.

I think it is in our weakness that God proves his strength.
God Bless

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Thursday, September 09, 2004

It is well

As the sounds of the start of season go through my ears all I say is

It is well with my soul.

Tolani is starting to feel better. It is just something we have to go through.

Praise to the suffering God.


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Wednesday, September 08, 2004


I want to give props to the Hawks.

Lets bring the Trophy to Seattle.

May Denver loose many games

May Oakland and St Louis loose more


As long as Seahawk fans spell lose "loose" we will have more victories and more championships. Perhaps, you put the two "oo's" back to back to celebrate Denver's back to back Super Bowls. Seattle has a chance to repeat this year... a top 2 draft pick next year...that is.

In all seriousness Bill we are praying for Tolani and You at this time. And yes, I agree...thank God for FOOTBALL!!!

God bless you both for your unwavering faithfulness.

T. P. Fenton (Bronco-maniac)See you in January my friend.

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 11:34 PM  

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All is well

The surgery went well. Thank you for all your prayers. While Tolani can see better it is still not good enough to drive. Hopefully the meds will help and her vision will continue to improve.

I comforted greatly by knowing that God is Emmanuel, present with us. I was struck that no matter what we suffer God has suffered more. All praise to the suffering God. I am comforted by knowing that God might be at work in the healing process but is at work through God's presence. What could be better then being in God's presence with our community.

So many blessings to you all. Enjoy God's presence.


I am glad Tolani's surgery went well. We will continue to lift the both of you up in prayer. All our love--SHORTy

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 12:43 AM  

Thanks for the update Bill,

I will continue to pray for her healing. It is so hard to watch someone you love suffer. Nietzche couldn't believe in a God that couldn't overcome suffering. I can't worship a God that won't enter into suffering for the sake of others. Praise to the suffering God.

By Blogger Dwight, at 6:26 AM  

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Monday, September 06, 2004

Re: Jesus is my Propitiation

Before I answer you what is your name?
In any event, are you saying that God caused, ordained, or whatever word you choose to use, Josephs brothers to sell him into slavery?
Are you saying God caused the famine?
People unable to eat and slavery are evil. So are you saying God causes evil?
While I do not enjoy debating Calvinist I d ask that we remain civil on my blog. While I believe you to be wrong I am not calling you a heretic. I understand you disagree and I don't care. I am only concerned that all people will choose to have a loving relationship with the Triune God. If you can not accept my right to disagree with you then please leave this blog. Fact is that neither of us is right. We are all (Calvin Augustine and Wesley included) are more wrong then we are right. So let us let love tolerance and humility rule this place.


I do not mean to be unloving. Pointing out error is, to me, very loving. I'm sorry if I sound offensive or arrogant. I know what I believe and I am convinced I am more right than wrong. I do not write in your blog to offend you or to debate you, but in an attempt to teach you and to comfort you. If you are not teachable and find me to be a sorry comfort, I'm wasting both our time.

You have been through some trying times and your view of God has not lent you any comfort. You do not know the comfort that Joseph had, who knew God would work things out. You did not experience the comfort that Daniel had in the lion's den, knowing that God would preserve him in either life or death. You do not exhibit the comfort of Paul who sang during imprisonments, who got up from being stoned and left for dead and went back into the city to preach the Word of God again. You do not speak of the comfort I have known through trials in my life, that my loving Father is in control and has promised not to give me more than I can handle.

To answer your questions, yes, God caused the famine and yes, God caused Joseph's brothers to sell him into Slavery. Joseph's brothers meant it for evil. To them, because they did it, it was evil. But, God meant it for good. The Bible doesn't teach that people unable to eat and slavery are always evil. Remember, God sent the entire nation of Israel into slavery, twice. The first time He sent them to Egypt, where they were enslaved, and the second time he sent them to Assyria and Babylon.

Yes, God brought about the famine in Egypt - the Bible says so. See Genesis 41:28 & 32. Joseph says to Pharaoh about the coming time of plenty & the coming time of famine, 28:"God has told Pharaoh what He {God} is about to do." & 32: "God will quickly bring it about." The Bible says right there that God planned and caused the famine.

If you respond to me "leave my blog" - I will never write on your blog again. But, I leave you with this,

My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience. But let patience have its perfect work, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking nothing. If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all liberally and without reproach, and it will be given to him. But let him ask in faith, with no doubting, for he who doubts is like a wave of the sea driven and tossed by the wind. For let not that man suppose that he will receive anything from the Lord; he is a double-minded man, unstable in all his ways.

Let the lowly brother glory in his exaltation, but the rich in his humiliation, because as a flower of the field he will pass away. For no sooner has the sun risen with a burning heat than it withers the grass; its flower falls, and its beautiful appearance perishes. So the rich man also will fade away in his pursuits.

Blessed is the man who endures temptation; for when he has been approved, he will receive the crown of life which the Lord has promised to those who love Him. Let no one say when he is tempted, “I am tempted by God”; for God cannot be tempted by evil, nor does He Himself tempt anyone. But each one is tempted when he is drawn away by his own desires and enticed. Then, when desire has conceived, it gives birth to sin; and sin, when it is full-grown, brings forth death.

Do not be deceived, my beloved brethren. Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, and comes down from the Father of lights, with whom there is no variation or shadow of turning. Of His own will He brought us forth by the word of truth, that we might be a kind of firstfruits of His creatures.

So then, my beloved brethren, let every man be swift to hear, slow to speak, slow to wrath; for the wrath of man does not produce the righteousness of God.

Therefore lay aside all filthiness and overflow of wickedness, and receive with meekness the implanted word, which is able to save your souls.

But be doers of the word, and not hearers only, deceiving yourselves. For if anyone is a hearer of the word and not a doer, he is like a man observing his natural face in a mirror; for he observes himself, goes away, and immediately forgets what kind of man he was. But he who looks into the perfect law of liberty and continues in it, and is not a forgetful hearer but a doer of the work, this one will be blessed in what he does.

If anyone among you thinks he is religious, and does not bridle his tongue but deceives his own heart, this one’s religion is useless. Pure and undefiled religion before God and the Father is this: to visit orphans and widows in their trouble, and to keep oneself unspotted from the world.

By Blogger Jesus is my Propitiation, at 8:58 PM  

Hey 1 John 4:10, Jesus is my Propitiation

Why don't you come over and talk on my blog spot and give Bill and Tolani a break. I am sure you and I could have some good discourse.

Bill and Tolani have enough on their plate to deal with, without you giving them a lecture or filling up Bill's blog with your topic of discussion, but my blog spot could use someone like you to help me out. So, leave Bill to work out his own salvation according to God's will in his life, I am sure the Lord knows what He is doing and I am also sure that Bill is listening to what the Lord is telling him.

So, come on down and visit me. Hey Mikey, you'll drop by too won't you? I think it would be a good challenge for us to have 1 John 4:10 come visit my blog.

May the Lord enlighten you to His love and His grace.

By Blogger Concerned Citizen, at 9:36 AM  

Hi, Cheri (a.k.a. Goofy),

I'm not in this discussion. All I did was add a prayer for Bill and Tolani who are going through a time of difficulty with health issues. I'm ot smart enough to get involved in the theologial discourse that is going on. I will say that this earth is under a curse because of the fall of man and even Christians are made to suffer. Knowing Jesus as Saviour won't make God our Santa Claus and give us everything we want. He heals whom He chooses and I only asked Him to be there for Bill and Tolani! We have a right to ask God for anything, but I have learned He doesn't always give us everything we want.

I would like to see Bill and Tolani receive only better circumstances as it relates to Tolani's health and I prayed to God in that regard.

God bless, Cheri!

Mikey (lloyd michael fletcher)

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Saturday, September 04, 2004


Well here is an update.

It seems like forever though its only been since Wednesday. We spent Thursday night and all day Friday at the ER. Finally we saw Dr J he has a big last name so he goes by Dr J. He is at Doheny Eye Institute at USC. The diagnosis is pseudotumor cerebri. It is effecting Tolani currently in her eyes. She can not see much out of her right eye and her left eye only about 50% or so.

She will have surgery on Tuesday. It is needed we just don't know how it will effect her eye sight. We hope she will recover some of what she lost.

I am frightened but I know that God is Emmanuel.


You and Tolani remain in our prayers. I am so sorry that you both seem to be hit with things one right after another. I wish there were words to say or that I could be there to just lend my comfort. However, both of those things are not realistic. So, just know I love you both and I think about you often. You are in my prayers----- From SHORTY =O)

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 12:21 AM  

Our thoughts and prayers will be with you both Bill. I can't understand why you both are suffering so much, but I know God loves you both and cares very much.

Not much in the way of supreme wisdom there, but I mean it all.

God bless you both!

By Blogger Paul Munro, at 3:45 AM  

Hey Paul Munro,

Don't you think that 1 John 4:10/Jesus is my propitiation should come on down to my blog, well actually I have two so he could blog twice. You'd join in too wouldn't you Paul? I think it would be MOST EXCELLENT if 1 John 4:10 came and we could discuss or debate his issues of the scriptures.

So what do you say, this is an open invitation, lets bring it to a discussion of Pastors rightly dividing the Word of God. What say you 1 John 4:10? Come on over and we can all talk, in fact if Bill wants to join in, he can post when he is not so busy taking care of his families needs, which is a MOST RIGTEOUS thing to do when they are confronted with so many heavy issues. God is the provider and their comforter and I think everyone of us here agree that Bill is seeking God in these matters and 1 John 4:10 doesn't need to meddle where God is at work....


By Blogger Concerned Citizen, at 10:35 AM  

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