Thursday, February 24, 2005

A change

On Tuesday we received word that we are being transferred!
We have known this for a while but it is official. Tolani and I are going as corps officers of LA Light House Corps. It is attached to the LA Harbor Light which is located on skid row in downtown LA. In addition I will be the director in training of Harbor Light. This means they will train me to be able to run the operation. It is a large program with mostly government funds. While this part is a bit scary we are very excited. It fits with what we want to do for our ministry. I'm sure there will be more coming on this but right now we are just happy about the move.

Also if you live in LA check out AM 1150. It's now Air America Radio.

Great news for LA.

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Hey Bill,

Congrats on the move. It was good talking to you on the phone this weekend. Yesterday I tuned into Air America 760 out of Boulder, CO and loved their take on the fact that we need to worry about health care costs tripling by 2010 more than Social Security that may be gone by 2030.

By Blogger Dwight, at 7:06 AM  

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Saturday, February 19, 2005

Yesterday

Yesterday Tolani's surgery was dragging on.

My fear was growing
helpless I was
Why is everyone I Love
Sick all the time
Always sick nothing I can do
This doctor
That doctor
isn't that what the experts are for

I just do not understand why
this last year has been hell on earth
Locked in my thoughts
nowhere to run
thinking what if
why does it take so long

God creates
so others can create
amazing if you think about it
thanks doc
you did great

But there I was
frightened out of my gourd
afraid
afraid of what might be
what could be
what if

but thanks doc
thanks God
for creating
so others could create

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Bill,
Thanks for sharing. My thoughts and prayers are with you and Tolani.

By Blogger Dan (aka Br Bozano), at 4:12 PM  

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By Blogger rpiercy, at 11:23 AM  

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News

Well most of you know that Tolani has been sick for a while. In short her body produces too much spinal fluid. This causes headaches and the blindness she suffered back in September. Anyway, the only cure is a VP shunt, a permanent tube running from her head to her belly. So she had the surgery yesterday at USC. I am happy to say that she is home and doing well.

Anyway, I had the chance to finish reading Joyful Theology by Sara Maitland. She says many things that traditional Christian will have a problem with. She believes in evolution and she even believes that God takes risks. Or to phrase it another way he creates. God does not know the end result of that creation. But and listen to this the end is not the point anyway.

Modern theology is built on the end being important. This is more hellenistic then Judaic and more modern (in the scientific philosophical sense) then Christian. What if the end is not the point at all? What if salvation is more about joy and togetherness then sin and heaven or hell? What if true theology is more about joy or awe or wow then it is about being right or wrong?

What if we have been asking the wrong questions?

What are the right questions?

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Those are interesting questions to ask. It reminds me of the Nicodemus-Jesus encounter where Nicodemus approached Jesus with his already made concepts about who Jesus was and the role of "religion" in one's life, and Jesus approached me from an entirely different direction and perspective.

I, personally, believe there is room for both, what we have traditionally believe in the "modern" world and the questions that are being posed today about our faith, our theology, and even about our God.

As a Christian, I take comfort in knowing that in the end, God will reign, but in the hear and now, I know it is equally important on how I relate to my fellow man (that includes everyone, even non-Christians).

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 10:59 AM  

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Monday, February 07, 2005

My life

I had a long post all ready and I lost it while running spell check.

Anyway, Tolani and I have been talking about us and me especially. I have two major issues that are causing issues with us. First, I have a fear of failure. I am afraid to try new things unless I know I will succeed. If I feel that there is a high failure rate I won't do it. The problem is that I say things like that so Tolani won't approach the idea of going dancing or going to symphonies (she likes those things) because I have said I don't dance or classical music sucks (it does by the way-personal preference). Going to a symphony just means I must endure the boredom and think about other things, no fear, I'll go anytime she just never told me she wanted to go before. But dancing is a different subject. I have a fear that I will fail. I hate failure unless it is something I do on purpose. (I have done that in two classes before.) I hate not being confident in what I about to try. I was 80% certain Tolani would go out with me. If I was not I never would have asked. Rejection is the worst kind of failure. But for Tolani I will take dancing lessons. Where do I start? Help please!

The second thing is that I can be abrasive. I say things that can get me into trouble. Usually they are ideas. The problem is that I love the college setting. All ideas get air time. I live in this world. Every idea should be heard equally. The real world isn't like that. Either most people don't think and question or they play a game. J.D. Salinger called the game phony. Maybe that is the key to larger societies. We have to be phony on some level. I just don't like what the phoniness means. It means being silent and getting more innocent (both American and Iraqi) getting killed. It means many other things, I just don't care to list them now. My problem is that if I am coming off like an ass (my word for abrasive) then I am not accomplishing anything. So how do make my political stance known without being an ass? This is my million dollar question. I need some help.


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Fear - Pick up "Seizing Your Divine Moment" by Erwin McManus, one of the best books that I am reading at the moment, but he deals with this issue head on.

Being less abrasive - Maybe I'm the wrong one to ask, but what helped me out a little was a sociological theory of space. There is Public, Social, Private and Intimate space and relationships. Public is the farthest both physically and emotionally. Public relationships are the bank teller, waiter/waitress, Customer Service Rep, etc. You may or may not know their first name and they provide a service that is not personal on any level. Some of the best waitresses (I have not had a waiter do this) I have had moved into more of a social relationship than a public one. Social is where we can talk about facts about sports, weather, current events etc, but no true opinions or strong emotions.

Private is where you can share your thoughts and opinions with people and they listen and then share their's with you. Intimate is where you can share unformed thoughts, ideas and dreams without fear of rejection for those ideas.

Maybe why you are seen as an ass is because you are sharing private information with public and social relationships. One unconsciously feels like they have been intruded on or violated if that happens. Last night R and I used a coupon at Cold Stone and the person behind the counter shared her life story (or at the last weekend) with me because I asked how she was doing. That was a violation of the public relationship as she shared not only social, but private information with me. This happens a lot to me (R was nice enough to point this out) so I was only slightly uncomfortable with it.

Since you asked for help, try seeing if you know the person you are talking to well enough to be able to share certain information or opinions about a certain subject. Also, just because the person behind the counter shared private information did not give me permission to share any private information of my own. Hope that helps,

By Blogger Dwight, at 7:07 AM  

Hi, Bill!

Dwight gives helpful advice!

We all have "fears" of the unknown, but not doing the best job, or leaving our "comfort zones." It is moving beyond the "comfort zones" and facing fears that they have less affect upon us - or at least those fears do not. There will always be fears! Some we move through, others hold us back. My best method of facing fear is to "go forward."

Dancing? Let Tolani lead and you'll do fine. This may be an exercise that you might approach seriously, but learn it in an "non-serious/non-threatening" mode. Have fun with it. You might prove to be an adept dancer, but keep your "day job." You might find it will be a wonderful social outlet to forget the cares of the day, the office, the appointment, etc.

You have to be the one to determine how to handle abrasiveness. What you say may not appear "abrasive" to some, but may appear that way to others. You have to move forward carefully until you know what that person finds "acceptable" or "abrasive." Some people would call that "being transparent" not abrasive.

Bill, "a one, two, three, four..." I think you can dance! The best trick....rent a video on dancing and learn the first moves at home privately before dancing at the studio...you won't be as intimidated for fearful.

God bless you!

Lloyd Michael Fletcher

By Anonymous Anonymous, at 12:53 PM  

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Clarify

I think I need to clarify the question I asked in my last post.
The current sermon structure is the Pastor has a point or points (I am not concerned with what those are because every pastor has some true points and some garbage).
They spend 30 minutes or so convincing people of their point with various homiletic structures.
They then call people to respond in some manor.
While they do this half the congregation is either sleeping, playing on their Palm, thinking about what is for lunch, or my favorite desensitizing the argument.
Furthermore, unlike the ancient church this sermon is the reason for church. It is the focal point.

WHY?

What is the point?

Does this help us experience a real dynamic marriage with Christ?
Does it help us to know God and more importantly help God know us? (allow us to be real with God)
Does it help build the Church (true community)?

Sometimes maybe.

But I do not think I've ever seen it.

It seems to me that relationships with God and others happen often in spite of the church service structure. So, what if our structure help the relationships instead of hindering them?


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